This is it!
This is one of the tractors I was driving all morning. Turns out I was supposed to be in farming all along. Yep. My true vocation. Just picture me on the tractor.. doesn't it seem like the perfect fit?
Posted at 06:05 PM on August 29, 2002 | Comments (1)Fun
Here's a picture of me with a hat I recently purchased. The photo is too dark. But the hat is cute. That's what I think anyway...
Posted at 11:43 PM on August 26, 2002 | Comments (1)Let go
What does it mean that I get more excited about learning to quilt or doing a million cross-stitch projects than about speaking better Spanish?
Maybe it's normal, after all most people don't like to work. Maybe that's what it is. I just get ambitious about stuff that won't be part of a "job".
I don't think I'm lazy. Maybe I'm just naturally ... unambitious. People say when your job is doing something you love it's not a job anymore, but I'm not so sure. I don't think making a job out of your hobby is going to solve the problem. It's just going to make it worse. The point of a hobby is doing something for one's own pleasure and as soon as it's a job it becomes doing it for the pleasure of your boss, your audience or your customers. It kind of misses the point.
Anyway, there is this little voice claiming that somehow I'm supposed to be looking for a job that will satisfy me, and that will let me use my talents and I will enable me to "advance"... because that's what will make me happy.
I don't want to advance. I do want to use my talents but I don't want to have this pressure that I have to do something everyone will consider impressive. I think I will be blissfully unsuccessful and a happy non-achiever, until I change my mind or have some sort of revelation. In the meantime I can enjoy the wonderful freedom that comes with my despicable lack of ambition.
"I will just stay here and wait until I get another message... from myself."
;)
Just a day
It's time for a new entry and I have no idea what to write. I need to keep my huge audience entertained though, so they don't stop checking the site.
My life is not very exciting right now, we're anxious to move and to work but one doesn't really go without the other, so we're kind of stuck here waiting for something to happen. It's time to make some money too, so that's what we'll do in the meantime... until someone takes pity and/or realizes the huge potential of the Indiana Souzek-household.
Obviously we have watched a lot of movies and read a lot of books, so since my book, music and movie sections are not up yet I'll just post my opinions here...
Books:
The Corrections - Jonathan Franzen
Very good but very depressing. If you feel depressed, it might make it worse, but it also might help - you can start feeling good about yourself and your family and thank God it's not like the one in the book. It's a great analysis of different characters and the nature of family - and how you can love and hate the eternal attachment to it. Still, it's very depressing.
If you didn't get it by now, let me tell you that I thought this book was ... depressing.
Our America - LeAlan Jones, Lloyd Newman, David Isay
This one is rather sad and shocking but really really worth the read. The book is made after a radio program that was aired in 93 and 95. Two boys from the Chicago South Side projects talk about their life, well, more about their survival. It's quite strange to read this and think America considers itself in peace and not at war. I know it's more complicated than that, but that's the first impression I got.
At Home in the World: Collected Writings from the Wall Street Journal - Daniel Pearl
I'm still reading this one, but I already love it. If you don't know the story of Daniel Pearl, it's easy to find out - just enter his name into the next search engine. These articles are great - I really like his perspective and writing style. The fact that he was killed gives everything a tragic touch. It seems that the peaceful ones always get it first. People like him are an inspiration though. It really all depends on how you spent your time and not how long you lived.
Wow. It seems I only read depressing books. It must be that I am so socially aware that I can not deal with happy stories. As long as it's bad it must be real, right? Just kidding. Boy, am I bored. I'm losing all my wit.
I will cut the next part short because I see people yawning...
Movies I'd recommend: Signs and The Others. Both are way too scary. For me anyway. I can't stand being scared and unfortunately it doesn't take much. I made it to the end of both though and was glad I saw them because they really are very good.
Posted at 05:22 PM on August 16, 2002
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An excellent article regarding misconceptions about...
Posted at 02:28 PM on August 04, 2002Don't be afraid
I've waited a little with this entry because the topic seems larger than life and I feel frustrated before I've even started.
Last weekend Lincoln and I went to the World Youth Day in Toronto. About a million young people meet each other and the Pope.
It's actually not possible to describe what it's like, so I won't try. If someone really wants to know... they should go.
It's not the easiest thing to be Catholic nowadays, although I'm sure it never was. There's a lot of deserved and undeserved criticism. What's probably most painful at times is the personal aspect. I can see that a lot of people can't understand that the connection to one's faith and especially one's church can be a very strong one, emotionally as well as spiritually. I wish I could explain it. I find myself quite lost trying to project the right picture of what it is.
To sum up my own joy about the World Youth Day: The Holy Father just never seems to miss the "point". Trying to live life in truth and charity is mostly not very poetic, although there are wonderful moments. It's rather discouraging and hard and sometimes quite annoying. To have the Pope come and tell you that you are not alone in this and that what you are trying to do is possible is just unbelievable. It helps that there are hundreds of thosand of people to prove it.
Anyway to spare you all the flowery talk, I will post a few links that document the event.
"Why have you come together from all parts of the world? To say in your hearts: "Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life" (Jn 6:68). Jesus - the intimate friend of every young person - has the words of life.
The world you are inheriting is a world which desperately needs a new sense of brotherhood and human solidarity. It is a world which needs to be touched and healed by the beauty and richness of God's love. It needs witnesses to that love. It needs you - to be the salt of the earth and the light of the world."