Let go
What does it mean that I get more excited about learning to quilt or doing a million cross-stitch projects than about speaking better Spanish?
Maybe it's normal, after all most people don't like to work. Maybe that's what it is. I just get ambitious about stuff that won't be part of a "job".
I don't think I'm lazy. Maybe I'm just naturally ... unambitious. People say when your job is doing something you love it's not a job anymore, but I'm not so sure. I don't think making a job out of your hobby is going to solve the problem. It's just going to make it worse. The point of a hobby is doing something for one's own pleasure and as soon as it's a job it becomes doing it for the pleasure of your boss, your audience or your customers. It kind of misses the point.
Anyway, there is this little voice claiming that somehow I'm supposed to be looking for a job that will satisfy me, and that will let me use my talents and I will enable me to "advance"... because that's what will make me happy.
I don't want to advance. I do want to use my talents but I don't want to have this pressure that I have to do something everyone will consider impressive. I think I will be blissfully unsuccessful and a happy non-achiever, until I change my mind or have some sort of revelation. In the meantime I can enjoy the wonderful freedom that comes with my despicable lack of ambition.
"I will just stay here and wait until I get another message... from myself."
;)
Cute hat:o).
¿Qué? ¿Hace mejor español parlante no emocionarlo? ¡Muerda la lengua!
Who says you have no ambition? Your ambition
just seems to be searching for a sense of peace.
Ain't nothing wrong with that-just may not make
money.