Photosynthesis
This is one of the words I use every day at my job at the orchard, so it just kind of seemed fitting for the past week. I can tell you working outdoors is pretty tiring, but I really don't miss the fresh crispy office air... yuck.
It seems if I let this blog go for a few days I have a harder time getting back on, so I should really try to be disciplined.
Not much has changed in the last few days. We are actively looking for sources of money since it seems the so-anxiously-awaited-job is not showing up. So I applied at Hobby Lobby and at Barnes&Noble. Oh yes. I'm gonna get me some employee discounts...! Well, in case they consider me, of course. It's good to know so many people are thinking of us and praying for us. I'm not getting more patient with time but I am realizing that we also need to give ourselves a break. We have tried and are still trying every acceptable option and I'm growing a little weary of well-meant advice. It just always makes you feel like you've failed to try this one perfect way of finding a job... or if you had only thought of "this" you would have gotten one by now. The realization that not only the "obvious" things are out of our control - like the weather, or sickness or birth and death - is being confirmed to me once again. Sometimes you can do it all and it seems you haven't moved an inch. Other times you do nothing and it seems to fall in your lap.
Well, it's Friday night and I'm tired. Luckily after extensive days of worrying you realize trying to keep the sky from falling is quite futile and you can just rest your legs a little. So, tonight I will just be completely indifferent about whether there will be a job or not. (Yeah right...)
I'm working feverishly on my crafty crafts. I plan to put a few things up on ebay. Not so much for money but for fun... I'd like to see if and what people would buy... well,what they would consider worth their money. If they don't I'm sure I will find great use for everything in my new mansion. :)
Posted at 09:04 PM on September 27, 2002
"Sometimes you can do it all and it seems you haven't moved an inch. Other times you do nothing and it seems to fall in your lap." - exactly my experience, well and everybody else's I guess, but, you know: I LOVE THINGS FALLING IN MY LAP and I always think: NOW, EXACTLY NOW IS THE RIGHT MOMENT! :-)))) Don't you?