Pregnancy - yes!
So I really have been feeling better. Yesterday was a particularly good day. I'm back to singing in the car! You'd think it's not a big deal but everyone who knows me will be surprised to know that I really felt too weak to sing in the car. Yep, I felt THAT bad. So that's over and I'm loving it.
I had a doctor's appointment recently that helped change my outlook as well. We got to hear the heartbeat... and- that little one kicked me... twice!!!! I was in awe/shock. I didn't know it was possible that early. What a great feeling! There IS a baby in there. Not that I didn't know but nausea had dominated my life to such an extent that I just had no energy to have happy baby thoughts.
Plus I felt so good yesterday that I actually felt I could handle a baby no problem. Get this baby out of there, I'm ready! Ok ok I'll wait a few months. I'm at 15 weeks and I will have my first ultrasound on Feb 20th. I'm so excited. We should know the sex by then... if the baby doesn't take too much after it's Catholic heritage and avoids direct views of its private parts. :) We'll see. I'll let you all know.
Thank you very much for the encouraging thoughts though. I know that it's all manageable and I'm not really thinking I can't handle it. As long as I keep in mind that things will change and that's ok I'll be happy. I figured out that the biggest obstacle right now is that I just don't know what it's like to have a child and be a parent. I'm beginning to realize there is nothing you can do to "try it out" and "see what it would be like". Sure one could do a lot of babysitting but in that case the baby is not YOURS. That's a whole different story.
In the meantime I will entertain myself with unattainable pregnancy fashion. I will also shamelessly let you know that my favorite websites are:
www.gap.com
www.motherhood.com
www.babystyle.com
Mothers and mother-in-laws are exempt from this though, as they have and will go overboard with purchases (as they always do) and need everything but encouragement to buy me stuff.
Posted at 03:51 PM on January 28, 2003
Glad to hear you are feeling better. I get sick also, and it is always hard and mixed in with "oh, what am I going to do" feelings. All will be well, and even really great...you'll see!