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First of all, let me say that giving up my afternoon coffee & snack for lent was a bad bad idea. I NEED it. Generally sacrifices suck. Do NOT sacrifice, people. It just makes you miserable sitting on the couch craving sugar and feeling sorry for yourself. And if you couldn't post it on your website, it would be completely useless.
My parents were visiting last weekend, although my mom stayed for almost 2 weeks total. Veronika had a great time with the reaquainted baka and I think she had as well. To my shock though, it seems Veronika has gained some understanding of "leaving" and after we said goodbye to baka before she started going towards security, Veronika all of a sudden started screaming for her and yelling "no no no". I was not prepared for this. I tried to explain to her what was going on, but the cruelty of life wants it that we are always let to be smart enough to realize what's happening but never given the full picture to also understand why. You might think I was worried about my daughter's feelings but actually I was just preoccupied with my own terror about how I would ever deal with this. Yeah, kids need to grow up, but please why do I have to witness it? What do I tell her when she's old enough to ask? "Yeah, baby, life is full of disappointments and things we can't fix. Oh and yeah, I brought you into this mess well aware of those tiny little details. I would give you a brownie to make you feel better but NO! it is lent and we willingly renounce of those things right now." Oh and please, do not come to me with ridiculousities like "that's nothing compared to the real tragedies of this world." Bah! Like she really needs to know there is worse than goodbyes and no chocolate.
To distract myself from this unsolvable problem I decided it was time to get some new playstation games! I play videogames about twice a year and so far it's been one game only (Jak & Daxter) and I figured after 3 years of the same I could try another one (Jak & Daxter II). God, I am so radical. So I rent it from Blockbuster, but forget it there. I take another trip to Blockbuster to pick it up only to find out that the playstation forgot how to show the game besides just playing the sound. There is no way to make the game appear on TV. A desperate call to the career-making husband in Atlanta produces no results. He claims he can't fix things from far away. Whatever. How is it possible that in 2005 I can not drown myself in meaningless mindnumbing entertainment at the push of a button! The empty promises of this godless generation are really letting me down!
Also, I bet you wanted to know I cut my hair. When I got pregnant I thought it would be nice to have long hair again. So finally, after over two years, my hair was long but it didn't look anything like it did before. Turns out having children makes your hair flatter and darker (in my case). Add to that a funny slavic-shaped head, flat in the back framed by two corners left and right and you realize, long hair that needs to be pinned down or up does not look good on you. ME, in this case. So now I'm back to an almost-chin-length curly style and I love it. Hair is so important! It is!
Normal people would pick a good hair day to take a picture of themselves and post them online but not me, I rather choose one where I have straight-out-of-bed hair and my-neighbors-woke-me-up-in-the-middle-of-the-night hair. That's just to not distract from my radiant inner beauty shining from my grey complexion!
You look lovely. You look so very slavic in that picture, as stated by another slavic chick. People always tell me Cecilia looks slavic which I think is strange since she looks like a baby version of Dan who is American as apple pie.
I love reading about Veronika because she is almost exactly one year older than Cecilia so I feel like your blog helps me prepare for what is coming.
Sounds like you have been keeping busy. It's always great to have people visit but it's also sad to see them go. Bittersweet I guess.
I have friends from Germany and England visiting this month so that should be fun.
Maybe we can get together some time again too.
You gave up afternoon coffee and snack for lent? Wow. I feel for you. Veronika is darling, though. And I love the hair! (Um, yours, I mean!)
Oooh, I wish I could do that to my hair. It looks so charming.