Randomness continues
Why does everyone have to have a Christmas party or concert or whatever? I have a feeling that this is just the beginning, that once the kids are bigger, my advent will be cluttered with all kinds of stupid events that I must attend and prepare for. Why is that? Why can't I have a personal advent? And the thing is, everyone is annoyed by it. "All this work! Christmastime is crazy!" Yet we all keep organizing and attending. Nobody wants to volunteer their time, but let's just squeeze in one more thing!
I feel like I have to really fight this engulfing busyness. I am not willing to give my precious time to yet another Holidayish festivity, even though I understand the need or the wish or the good intention. It's distracting and exhausting. All I'd like is some laid-back time at home with my family, which I never seem to have despite the fact that I'm at home with my family all the time. Maybe it's my own fault. Should've bought my Christmas presents in March, baked the cookies in August and lit all four candles on December 1st. Get it all out of the way.