She's posting again? Where does she take the time?
Every year I have less time for Christmas preparations. This year I didn't even attempt to make plans for crafts. I figured if I didn't have anything planned I wouldn't know what exactly I didn't end up having time for. I play little mind games like that a lot. That means I'm crazy.
At the same time I think I am getting better at accepting that and appreciating what I do have. So, if Veronika and I only end up making one kind of cookie or all the crafts I manage is putting a few stars on a wreath I am ok with that. I just make sure I enjoy those moments to the fullest. As far as that is within my power. This year has also brought death to my life and with all its sorrow also some perspective. I haven't changed (unfortunately, I could use permanent change in some areas) but I was given some powerful direction if you will and I'm hoping to make this last as long as possible.
Anyway, I wish I had more time always, but I am joyful regardless. I may have lost in personal pursuits but I have gained incredibly in companionship. You should see how Ivan's eyes light up when you sing "Santa Claus is coming to town" to him and hear the earnestness in his tiny voice when he tries to sing along. Veronika's dedication to recreating parts of the nutcracker is mesmerizing... Both their excitement about every thing Christmassy is so infectious. I haven't had this much fun expecting Christmas since I was a kid myself.Posted at 01:36 PM on December 20, 2008