The non-post
I've been running on empty for a while now and at times like that I just can't bring myself to write anything, even though ironically it would make me feel better. It's been one of those cycles when I go from really really tired to really really really tired to "I-don't-know-who-I-am-anymore"-tired. In addition to the usual insanity I'm also potty training Nikola. It's going well, but it is what it is and this time we're using a timer, usually set at 10-15 minute intervals and so my life is chopped up into these tiny time frames between negotiations over the potty and the clean-up portion of it (A BIG portion of it. Poop anyone?). He's made big progress, but I feel like a rain of a million tiny pee droplets has descended over my house and I will never ever be able to clean it all up. Currently my overall state of mind is "never ever". It's all for nothing. For all my trying nothing will get done and if it will it will be a failure... etc etc. I wish I could detect these kind of burn-outs in time, but it never quite works. Because as long as I can still keep going, I keep going.
Anyway, I would like to believe I still have some brain left and that it will resurface once I get to catch my breath.
I hear you my friend. Potty training is almost as hard as it gets in parenting, isn't it? Sigh. Of course we still haven't seen anything with our kids not having reached puberty and the teenage years yet. Sometimes I think I won't be able to survive it all. I hope your brain resurfaces intact after this "storm" of tiny little pee droplets (yikes!).
Bei mir läuft das so: sobald es mit den Kindern leichter wird, freue ich mich darüber, dass ich Dinge wieder tun kann, die ich so lange vermisst habe - und vor lauter Euphorie übertreib ich's gleich; unterm Strich hab ich dann weniger Energie als vorher und vielleicht auch noch eine ordentliche Verkühlung oder sonst eine kleine Erinnerung meines Körpers daran, dass ich zuerst darauf schauen sollte, meine Energiereserven wieder aufzubauen! Das System hab ich inzwischen durchschaut, und bei meiner mittelfristigen Planung bin ich auch schon vernünftiger geworden. Bei den kurzfristigen Dingen nicht - ich will endlich mal wieder in einen Malkurs, und zwar asap;-))
Alexandra,
Das System hab ich auch durchschaut, aber ich lerne nie was draus ;)