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How'm I 'posed to be positive?

I just need to vent a bit. The everyday routine that I've shouldered for the past month or so is exhausting me. I have a job that requires about 45 hours a week from me, a puppy that demands constant attention every waking hour of the day (not to mention wakes up promptly at 7 a.m. every morning, failing to recognize occasions like New Year's Day or, say, Saturday), a wife with a serious case of "morning sickness" to care for, and a heap of household duties that she (or Digby for that matter) is in no condition to perform. If something needs to be done, I'm pretty much on my own. Plus, we're only about 80% moved into our new place, so there's a substantial "to do" list waiting for me in case I finish everything else with some leftover time and energy.

If anyone has the audacity to tell me "that's just what it would be like if you were single, it's not that big of a deal," you might as well consider our friendship/family relationship null and void, because a) have you had a Rat Terrier puppy? 2) Full-time nausea is not a pretty thing and is quite difficult, even for a bystander, and d) Watching your spouse go through something like this for almost six weeks and being helpless to do anything about it is just about unbearable.

But for all that whining, I would not trade a day of it for what Dinka is going through right now. One time I ate a bad pastry at an established Vienna cafe and I thought it was the end of me. I can't even imagine what it would be like for that to be a way of life for over a month. So if you're going to feel bad for anyone, feel bad for her. I'm just an underslept whiner looking for attention in comparison.