Three

In Thoughts in Solitude, Thomas Merton says, "A man knows when he has found his vocation when he stops thinking about how to live and begins to live." These are the only words I know of that sufficiently explain why I got married (at twenty, no less!), and for that matter why we are having children. These "decisions" are only possible because they are not decisions at all. I am one of the best of all worriers and can make myself sick over decisions, but when it comes to these matters there is no need: I just know.

I can imagine that marriage can be a very difficult and trying thing but I have no such experience. There is no "relationship," no effort, just us, as if that's how it's always been. I have spent three years with her and I'll take another eighty in a heartbeat.

Happy anniversary Dinka.